Confession time: Thursday February 7th I started a sugar detox. I'm committed to going sugar free (last summer I was diagnosed with insulin resistance... next stop diabetes!) I've tried this before with only short, limited success (that was BEFORE the diagnosis), now that it is a DO or DIE (pun totally intended) I have to get serious about my sugar issues. This is where my tale begins...
I seriously need help. I'm in the kitchen whipping up a batch of carrot-ginger soup (the epitome of healthy yummy goodness, right? carrots, onion, ginger, garlic, broth...). I'm searching the pantry hoping to find some chicken bouillon since I was 2 cups short on the chicken broth, and that's when it happened.
Behind the big bag of spices tucked in the corner was a half full bag of dark chocolate chips. I gave them to Andy earlier in the week to keep with his stuff for a sweet treat. I looked in his cupboard and THAT bag was still there... this was a SECOND bag. I must have missed them when I cleaned out all the sugar-laden stuff earlier this week. Like a true addict-in-recovery I panicked. Andy was outside shoveling... no one would EVER KNOW!! In a weak moment, I quickly inhaled two little handfuls, looking around as I chomped them down, hoping not to get caught! Lucy was the only witness and she just looked up at me with a quizzical look on her face. Shame and guilt immediately took over me and I THREW the rest in the trash!
WHY am I so weak!? This is ridiculous, it's SUGAR. It's LEGAL. It's IN EVERYTHING. I'm only on Day Fricken 3 of my detox!!!!
I need serious help. A 12-step program perhaps? A sugar therapist? Perhaps a sugar free sponsor?
This is going to be harder than I thought. If you see me with something containing sugar in it, grab it from me!!!
Behind the big bag of spices tucked in the corner was a half full bag of dark chocolate chips. I gave them to Andy earlier in the week to keep with his stuff for a sweet treat. I looked in his cupboard and THAT bag was still there... this was a SECOND bag. I must have missed them when I cleaned out all the sugar-laden stuff earlier this week. Like a true addict-in-recovery I panicked. Andy was outside shoveling... no one would EVER KNOW!! In a weak moment, I quickly inhaled two little handfuls, looking around as I chomped them down, hoping not to get caught! Lucy was the only witness and she just looked up at me with a quizzical look on her face. Shame and guilt immediately took over me and I THREW the rest in the trash!
WHY am I so weak!? This is ridiculous, it's SUGAR. It's LEGAL. It's IN EVERYTHING. I'm only on Day Fricken 3 of my detox!!!!
I need serious help. A 12-step program perhaps? A sugar therapist? Perhaps a sugar free sponsor?
This is going to be harder than I thought. If you see me with something containing sugar in it, grab it from me!!!
2 comments:
Aren't the first few days the hardest? It's just like quitting anything. Just get back on track and don't think about todays slip up. :) If I see you with sugar, no worries - I'll knock it out of your hands!
It's definitely getting easier each day. I'm finding my tastes changing, slowly. I'm also finding that some fruit seems to curb the cravings.
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