Saturday, February 9, 2013

Sugar Addiction

Confession time: Thursday February 7th I started a sugar detox. I'm committed to going sugar free (last summer I was diagnosed with insulin resistance... next stop diabetes!) I've tried this before with only short, limited success (that was BEFORE the diagnosis), now that it is a DO or DIE (pun totally intended) I have to get serious about my sugar issues. This is where my tale begins...
I seriously need help. I'm in the kitchen whipping up a batch of carrot-ginger soup (the epitome of healthy yummy goodness, right? carrots, onion, ginger, garlic, broth...). I'm searching the pantry hoping to find some chicken bouillon since I was 2 cups short on the chicken broth, and that's when it happened.

Behind the big bag of spices tucked in the corner was a half full bag of dark chocolate chips. I gave them to Andy earlier in the week to keep with his stuff for a sweet treat. I looked in his cupboard and THAT bag was still there... this was a SECOND bag. I must have missed them when I cleaned out all the sugar-laden stuff earlier this week. Like a true addict-in-recovery I panicked. Andy was outside shoveling... no one would EVER KNOW!! In a weak moment, I quickly inhaled two little handfuls, looking around as I chomped them down, hoping not to get caught! Lucy was the only witness and she just looked up at me with a quizzical look on her face. Shame and guilt immediately took over me and I THREW the rest in the trash!

WHY am I so weak!? This is ridiculous, it's SUGAR. It's LEGAL. It's IN EVERYTHING. I'm only on Day Fricken 3 of my detox!!!!

I need serious help. A 12-step program perhaps? A sugar therapist? Perhaps a sugar free sponsor?

This is going to be harder than I thought. If you see me with something containing sugar in it, grab it from me!!!


Jen said...

Aren't the first few days the hardest? It's just like quitting anything. Just get back on track and don't think about todays slip up. :) If I see you with sugar, no worries - I'll knock it out of your hands!

Tara M said...

It's definitely getting easier each day. I'm finding my tastes changing, slowly. I'm also finding that some fruit seems to curb the cravings.