Thur: short run
Sat: long run
Sun: long walk
but ended up looking like this:
Tues: short run
Fri: more rest
Sat: still resting (or just incredibly lazy)
Sun: slow 3 mile walk with the dog
This has really unnerved me and I've spend considerable time trying to figure out what the hell is going on. The best I can come up with is that I have some underlying fear about failing. It seems to have crept up as the mileage on my long runs increased. I find myself fixating on my long run even before I've conquered the weekday short runs. I went from running 3 times a week to running once a week, and my goal is to build up to running 4-5 days a week. So here is my plan:
- I will schedule my runs and KEEP MY APPT with myself. If the weather isn't cooperating I will commit to running the treadmill (aka dreadmill) for 30 minutes or doing the elliptical for 30 minutes.
- I will not stress about the long run UNTIL IT'S TIME for me to run my long run!
- If I cannot complete the mileage for my long run, I will simply try again until I make it.
That is my goal: to be a real runner! So as my friend so aptly put it, I need to make sacrifices. It's not always going to be easy. I won't always 'feel like it'. I stumbled upon an article in Runner's World today and there was a quote that really stuck with me:
"you rarely regret the runs you do; you almost always regret the runs you skip".
So true. So today I am reiterating my commitment to running, to becoming a runner, and to shaping the outer me to reflect the inner me.